I look off, and I stare." Here, she's highlighting her own emotional emptiness and hopelessness. In the second verse, Lady Gaga sings, "Head stuck in a cycle.
She says that she bows "down to pray" to ask God to "show me the way" as she tries "to make the worst seem better." She's stayed with this relationship as best she can, but it's getting too difficult to "cut through all this worn out leather," which seems to be a reference to toughened emotional walls that keep her or him from being honest. In the chorus, she sings about trying to make sense of this relationship. She'd be happy to be with him, but instead he's giving her "a million reasons" to not "be still" and to leave. It's not perfectly clear what she means when she sings, "If you could find a dry way, I'd forever be still," but she seems to be saying that if he could figure his life out, she wouldn't complain anymore. When she sings, "If I had a highway, I would run for the hills," she's saying that if she saw a way out, she would leave quickly.
The other person has messed up again and again, and she's not sure she can take it anymore. to quit the show." She's talking about a relationship that isn't going well. In the first verse, Lady Gaga sings, "You're giving me a million reasons to let you go /.